sangat sunyi
3:10 p.m. + 2008-03-28
............arini ade rase a bit down. as usual, everytime i feel a bit down, there's always a compelling, compulsive need to write in my blog. Not sure why, really. Probably because someone who would read it would listen? Sure hope so.
Anyway, got an email few days back that made me realize that when we die, no matter how much we love our body, u can't take it with u. The only thing that we can take with us is our soul. Haha that made me thinking, can we recognize our friends at the end of the world without their face+body? :D I would scream "susu kocak!" and hope that fab 6 would recognize me then. haha :D
Anyway, i was feeling a bit down because i never really suceed in applying to gov. Back when i was 18, applying for this jpa thing with my poor results (got 2 C's somemore), failed the interview. On tuesday, went all the way to attend this interview with a gov department (statistic department), apparently got lost, legally still can make it but was socially unacceptable because of 2 minutes late, got sent home. And today....................(i don't know, maybe i was counting too much on this one), after attending a whole-day exam, failed again! what is wrong with me man. that makes me wonder, does the gov hate me that much? i mean, come on, after 3 tries, u would surely expect to get through the initial stage. Am i that bad??????
Finally turn to bestfren for life (Allah) to seek some advice. Maybe God meant better things 4 me. Maybe I'm not cut out to be a gov servant, with my rebellious mind and all. Maybe I'm just not good enough. That made me thinking, if u were to choose among hundreds, possibly thousands applicant, surely u'd choose someone who's really, really good, isn't it? Or it would be unfair to others. So that would mean I'm not good enough! Finally arrive to a conclusion that I must try harder, utilise all the time that Allah has given me instead of wasting it. (how persistent can i be....folks, beware :D )
After a few hours of trying to calm myself down (with the pms mood) , finally realize that the ignorant me forgot to be thankful to Allah SWT, for all that He has given me. Alhamdulillah3.
ok, i leave u with this short surah. Don't know how to translate, sorry.
Demi masa,
Sesungguhnya manusia dalam kerugian.
Kecuali orang-orang yg beramal solih, iaitu orang-orang yg benar dan orang-orang yg bersabar.
(lebih kurang la, sorry xde Quran pulak kat tempat kerja ni)
For now, I choose to be no. 2 :D Love u Allah! :D
before & after
last five
- - 2008-08-04
rant rant rant - 2008-07-07
My life currently - 2008-07-03
job sucks - 2008-06-18
My Hero's blog :D - 2008-05-07
g-han?